☕ huuuge updates incoming: reflecting on life changes and new beginnings

The End of One Chapter

👰🏻 the wedding

The weddings are finally over.
A sentence I’ve been waiting to say for months.

They were beautiful, emotional, loud, and exhausting — all at the same time. The bride and groom were glowing, the guests were happy, and everything somehow worked out in the end. The couple barely had to lift a finger, and I’m genuinely glad they could just enjoy their day. I’ve often heard that many couples don’t even get to eat at their own wedding, but thankfully, they did. I can’t say the same for myself though. Between organising, answering calls, fixing small crises, and taking care of all the last-minute “can you just…” tasks (from basically everyone), I didn’t really have time to sit down. But this time, I allowed help from everyone that noticed me running around from one task to another. The best lesson I've learned from the first wedding.

I woke up at 4 a.m. (again), running on minimal sleep and even less coffee. By the time we reached the ceremony, everything blurred into autopilot — one task after another, smiles, photos, decorations, timing, coordination. Somehow, it all flowed. And now, weeks later, it already feels distant, like a film I watched too many times and decided to stop rewatching. The memories are still there, but softened.

I’m happy that the couple is happy.
And I’m even happier that I’ll never have to do this again. ☕

🎓 the state exams

And right after the wedding chaos — came the state exams.
Five exams in total, one after another, testing every bit of knowledge and patience I had left.

It was an emotional rollercoaster: long stretches that felt endless, and yet the whole phase passed so quickly that I still can’t quite process it. I felt the lack of study time because of the weddings — really felt it. The missed hours, the broken focus, the moments where I sat with my notes, knowing my brain wasn’t keeping up anymore.

Still, somehow, I made it through. I passed all five exams. Finally a pharmacist.

It wasn’t just about knowledge. It was about holding myself together when everything around me was too much – honestly, a big thank you to my boyfriend for keeping me and the apartment together during this time. There were moments when I was proud of how focused I’d become — the structure, the discipline, the quiet mornings with my coffee and notes. That routine gave me a sense of calm.
But toward the end, it stopped being about calm. It became survival — getting through the day, staying awake, trying not to crumble under the pressure.

And now that it’s done, I feel an odd mix of emptiness and relief.
Like standing at the edge of something new, but still catching my breath from what’s behind me.

☕ what comes next

Now, I’m stepping into the next part of my journey — the working world.
The next year will be split into two six‑month rotations in different fields before I take the third and final state exam. Only then will this long academic chapter really end.

To be honest, I’m nervous.
I don’t fully know where I belong yet, or what exactly I want to do. Maybe I’ll find it in the second rotation. Maybe even in the first. Maybe somewhere completely unexpected.
Right now, I’m just trying to stay open — to learn, to explore, to not rush the answer.

I’m ready for new routines, even if I know they’ll look different from the ones I built while studying. I’m ready for new coffee cups on new desks. And I’m curious how this next chapter will unfold — not perfectly, but hopefully honestly.

🌿 still here

Even though I’m no longer a student, lifetogo stays.
Because this space was never just about studying — it was about living. About trying, failing, learning, and drinking way too much coffee in between.

So, if you’ve been following along through the chaos, the exams, the sleepless nights, and the little victories — thank you.

I’m excited to take you with me into this next phase: the first steps into work life, new beginnings, and the same comforting sound of coffee brewing somewhere in the background.

Here’s to what’s next —
and to figuring things out, one cup at a time. ☕🤎